I am so guilty of this. I always have good intentions...I tell myself to give it to God. Sometimes I need a good "kick in the pants."
Ever since I began having anxiety issues 13 years ago, I do struggle more. I do my best to live in the "right now," but it is not always that easy. Because I am a person of organization, I am always trying to figure out my life...what will happen tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 20 years from now, etc. I am such a planner, so I want to have a plan in place.
What I have learned though is that planning is good, but things don't always "go as planned." My dad's death and Michael's dad's death are examples of that. My miscarriage is an example of that. Moving here is an example of that. Leaving our church in PA is an example of that.
What I am trying to work on is living in the moment, letting go of that weight, and giving it to God. God knows my future anyway, so why not just let him shoulder it all. He is way better at it anyway.
You've always been a planner, and that is one of your many gifts. I agree, it can be very difficult to "let go, and let God..."
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